this

Everything's a process. A long, painful process. I hope I'm miles closer to figuring it all out, or at least toward accepting things for what they really are and not settling for distraction. Maybe then life might be a little easier to bear. I'm tough. I know I am

but

alongside this realization comes even more patience, a need for patience. with myself, with everyone. and just a general desire to chill the fuck out and stop worrying about shit.

i wish i could write a song right now but i can't