had a mini attack of anxiety whilst preparing paperwork for my visa.
can this be more difficult?
sure it can, but i'm good on that thanks. my cup hath runneth over
got in the car with my mom to drive to atlanta.
closed my eyes and breathed as deeply as i could
filling my lungs with air until my thoughts started to drift then i pulled them back into my lungs. is this what they call meditation?
a little retail therapy. a tasty meal at a place i like.
those things helped subside the things inside that were spinning like a whirlpool, bad thoughts rotating around leaving no room for kindness
for myself or the world around me.
i'll figure this shit out. i'll figure myself out too. it's just painful sometimes,
trying to make ends meet and puzzle pieces fit that may not be meant for the big picture. and i always blamed the poor picture due to its angle from where i was standing. maybe i should have bothered to ask why instead