i n s om n i a

stirring around in my bed
the lights won't go out in my head
i want to feel connected
instead of just affected
and less misunderstood
around my neighborhood.
red, white and blue
it's all you see, don't you?
i'm more than that but less than most
i'm here because it's what i chose
what brought me here i cannot say
because i can't find a way to explain
without opening my mouth and pouring everything
everything out
so instead i prefer keeping it shut
hoping someone will just get it
and i won't have to try and explain everything anymore