My ear aches. I could think of a hundred possibilities of why that is.
I don't want to screw anything up, by saying too much or saying too little. I don't want to be afraid of anything. Yet the more I sit and I wait, the bigger the fears start to manifest themselves.
I'm a better person when I move and shake under control, when I am busy I feel calm, and when I get excited while I'm busy it's usually for something good. I feel stronger when I am busy, more like an adult and not a whiny little bitch when I'm busy. But I'm not busy. I'm stuck, driving myself and the ones around me mad.
I hope they know how much I care, and how much this is not who I am.
I don't want to screw anything up, by saying too much or saying too little. I don't want to be afraid of anything. Yet the more I sit and I wait, the bigger the fears start to manifest themselves.
I'm a better person when I move and shake under control, when I am busy I feel calm, and when I get excited while I'm busy it's usually for something good. I feel stronger when I am busy, more like an adult and not a whiny little bitch when I'm busy. But I'm not busy. I'm stuck, driving myself and the ones around me mad.
I hope they know how much I care, and how much this is not who I am.
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