i finished a song today. first song in a year and a half. it's not very good. but i didn't feel really good when i recorded it. so i guess the fact that it's a little bit shit is kind of the point. why does a song that's about something which doesn't make you happy need to sound good? i'm off key, the sound levels are jammed, but once again, that's kind of what i was going for. or maybe i'm just making excuses.

i had a dream the other day that this romanian bloke offered me a ride on his motorcycle. he let me sit in the front while he steered, and i faced the opposite direction--his face--and he kissed me and it was hot and alive. kissing like that doesn't exist in reality very much, and if it does you're hardly ever prepared for it.